where
"Please tell us," they said. So I told them my story. They were smiling. And I knew, it wasnt honest at all. I could see a thousand of questions running in their head. So I stopped and continue walking to somewhere else. Alone.
July 31, 2019
-goodgirl-
"Be happy," they said. So I faked it. I became happy in front of them. I faked happiness so much that I forget who I actually am. So here I am. H A P P Y. But I dont even know who I am anymore.
"Be strong," they said. So I build a skyscraper at me and locked myself in it. Again, it was always a wrong decision, so I continue walking and left them behind.
"Just look at the bright side," but I didnt have any. I dont have anything else to look at. This is my life, its so much darker than you think it is, its so much scarier than you think it is. I keep looking for it, but how do you look at it when you dont have it, maybe it is what it is or maybe,
This is I have to end it.
July 31, 2019
-goodgirl-